her smile was warm but her heart was cold. Her eyes were bright but her soul was old. Now that she’s been broken she keeps her words unspoken. Depression ate her up, like a cloud covering the sun. She used to try then one day she was done. She used to be so innocent but curiosity got the best of her. She used to enjoy life but now it passes by its a blur. 

i actually kind of think it was fate that im with my boyfriend. he was supposed to leave before i even met him for boot camp but his date got pushed back. then he was supposed to leave in july. if he left in july i would never have had fallen in love with him. he was originally supposed to leave in june and he didnt leave until september 23rd, if he left when he was supposed to we would have never fallen in love and been together.

I missy boyfriends kisses. I miss his lips. I miss his smell. I miss his car. I miss his driving. I miss him calling me babe and baby. I miss his voice. I miss his stupid questions. I miss his blue eyes. I miss waking up next to him. I miss our sleep overs. I miss cuddling with him. I miss having sex with him. I miss holding his hand. I miss going on hikes with him. I miss our 2 am denny’s runs. I miss our late night mcdonalds runs. I miss him bad music choice. I miss his nieces. I miss him wearing miss matching socks. i miss him saying i love you. I miss playing with his hair. I miss him calling me beautiful. I miss him making my days better when im sad. I miss him playing with my hair. I miss his massages. I miss his name appearing on my phone. I miss his long pointless stories. I miss him being stupid. I even miss his smelly feet…i just miss him.

And then you roll up her sleeves and see that she lied, she’s not okay.